Monday, January 18, 2010
This morning as the baby crawled all over us in the early morning grey,
as she poked her little finger up my nostril and dug around,
as she yanked at my hair and flopped on my head,
I wish I could say I immediately thought, "Oh how wonderful it is to be a mom!"
I actually thought, "Grrrr, please go back to sleep!"
This mothering life takes all that I'm willing to give, and then it will take even more.
I make it so much harder when I dig in my heels and resist.
When I demand my way, my rights.
When I give in, accept, surrender...
what I've been given.
Oh, it is so much better.
That is where there is life and peace and joy.