Monday, January 25, 2010

Having a Day



Today I am having "a day".

I probably shouldn't be writing a blog post.

This is probably one of those posts that I will go back and delete at some point... or maybe not.

I want to keep it real.

I want you to know that I am not "there yet".

I am just a 40-something mom of 5 who has every day struggles and problems like everyone else.

My struggles are very normal.

Nothing is really wrong or awful or tragic.

I am very blessed.

I am healthy. 

My husband is healthy.

My kids are healthy.

We have plenty of food and clothes and a safe home to live in.

I don't want to complain. And I'm not sure if being real about how my day is going is complaining or not.

Please, if I am complaining, tell me. I will delete this and ask forgiveness and move on.

Today is one of those days that started earlier than I wanted it to.

Everyone seems to be grouchy.

The baby is finding everything that she can to put in her mouth, rip up, throw, mess up... you get the picture.

The five year old and the 14 year old have colds and are grouchy, grouchy, grouchy!

It's that P-word week for me. (I'll say no more...)

We have an ongoing construction project going on in our home and it is getting a little old.

OK, now that I have that all out.

I know it's not that bad.

It's just that in the middle of it all, when all seems chaotic and loud, it is so easy to feel like it is always like this and that I will never be a better mom, homeschooler, wife, homekeeper, yada, yada, yada....

Whew!

That feels better.

Sometimes a girl just has to get it out her head, you know?

As I type this, I am noticing that the sky is blue and the sun is shining.



I think I might just pack all the kids up in the van and head out to the park.

Playing out in the sunshine may just be what we all need to turn this day around.

See ya!

5 comments:

Trina said...

Oh my I don't think you are complaining. I think you are sharing with us that moms are vulnerable too. You ended it with how to turn your day around. It was a great post!

MamaMary said...

Christa,

I love your genuine, transparent heart my friend. I hope you made it to the park!

Lil' Momma said...

I have been having those feelings on an every other day basis. Nice to hear I am not the only one. :^) I don't think your complaining, just showing that you are human like the rest of us.

Brandy

Lori said...

Definitely NOT complaining. This is just reality in the life of a mom and wife who homeschools, cooks, cleans, etc. for five children! I think it's awesome. Keep up the good work! I think it's easier to appreciate the light when you have some dark to hold it up to anyway. If everyday were great, it would be hard to not take things for granted when they go well.

Christa said...

Awww, thanks you all! I appreciate you all so much for commenting and reminding me that I am not alone. (((BIG HUGS))) to each one of you.